Love of my life,

Syurgaku,

Madre, I love you with all my heart. Looking at the past can make us cry. The journey you’ve been through to raised up the 9 of us. Alone. Im sorry if i ever bring difficult to you as a daughter but trust me ma i’m trying my best to be better & to make you proud. Everything that i do, i do it for you.

She is the one i will go when i had uneasy feeling. The one who always listened to me when i'm in doubt in everything. She will comfort me no matter how bad i felt. Your words can calm me down and make me reflect myself. your hug is the most comfortable pillow. Your eyes is full of sincere as your heart. You are my lifesaver.

I remember when you try to be strong in front of your children when arwah tokbah left. You hugged me and calmed me down. You said “it’s okey it’s okey i’m here.” But i forgot, i forgot that you are the one who need us to comfort you. You lose your hero, your one and only supporter even when you failed and your business didn’t works out, He is the one who give you motivation and telling you to not give up when everyone bring you down. He play both roles as a father and grandfather to us. I remembered that he need to ulang alik from KL to Kelantan just to make sure mama and us is doing fine. He completed our needs. He is such a great father to mama, you are lucky to have a father like him. We are all lucky to have him. Sedar tak sedar, we share the same dad ma.

You deserves everything in this world ma. Nothing i can do now for you but i will make sure you are not alone, i will always have your back ma. You have us.