“Jadilah permata in every person you meet” be the sources of happiness to everyone in your life”

Ya allah aku serahkan segalanya padamu sang pencipta yang maha mendengar dan maha mengetahui.

Bismillah.

Hello it’s qistin again.

Sekadar luahan hati bcs there’s a lot in my mind lately which i can’t even tell people how i really feels but i just can’t keep it to myself(bcs i know some people have their own problem too & i don’t want to burden them) so here i am.

I just want to share the best words that always keep me strong ehich most of the words are from arwah tokbah. Rindunya dekat tokbah, Not even a single day i found myself not missing him. I totally changed. Every single night i wished i can meet him in my dream but nope & i need to slowly accept that he’s no longer with me. Tbh redha tu susah. almost 3 years & i still can’t accept this But belive me, slowly but surely. He taught me a lot especially adab bcs attitude can describe your personality. “Jadilah permata in every person you meet” be the sources of happiness to everyone in your life”

Ingat lagi bila sedih,gembira, or even feeling down, the first thing yang i fikir is to go back to Allah. Put him first in everything. Mama pernah pesan yang if we put Allah first, He will gives us more than we expected sebab dulu mama pernah letak orang yang dia sayang first in everything but if Allah nak tarik, sekejap je dia tarik. & the only choice she have that time is to be strong bcs she need to raised all of us alone & not even working that time. that’s why mama really work hard until now which arwah tokbah was her backbone during her hard times. I also read this one quotes saying that :

“Minta gelas dapat gelas

Minta air, dapat gelas dan air..

Same goes with :

Cari dunia dapat dunia

Cari akhirat dapat dunia dan akhirat.”

& ingat arwah tokbah pesan : jangan pernah berhenti buat baik, tak rugi berbuat baik. Jangan pernah ungkit. Treat every person you meet the best as you can & jangan pernah minta balasan sebab time tu lah keikhlasan kita diuji. When u did your best, you less worry.

Butt!! life teach me to put trust on people only once. Sometimes i seems like i dont care sebab i tahu Allah will always show me the truth. But once i lost my trust towards you, there’s no turning back. I keep my words. Dulu mama always said :

“Adik nak buat apa, adik pergi lah jauh mana pun. Jaga adab, Jaga nama mama, jaga nama keluarga. Mama taktahu tapi Allah tahu & Once i lost my trust towards you. You will not getting it back”

Even dia cakap bersahaja but sampai sekarang i pegang word tu sebab dulu mama memang kerja sampai lewat malam to reach her sale target & selagi tak capai target selagi tu dia tak balik. kitorang dekat rumah just doing our own thing. Mama cakap everytime dia keluar dia akan doa that Allah protect all of us when she’s not home. livin in a broken family is not easy but that makes you stronger as a person.

Perjanan hidup kita lain lain, ujian kita pun lain lain. But jangan merungut kalau takut mencuba. Usaha selagi kudrat masih ada, jangan jadi katak bawah tempurung.

”if you failed to plan, you plan to failed.”

Sekian.

Ngantuk, night.

Love, qis🤎